"this soul or life within us, by no means agrees with the life outside of us. If one has the courage to ask her what she thinks, she is always saying the very opposite to what others may say " -marcus aurelius
It has been a long time since writing on my blog. I disapeared for a while. Perhaps not for the better, but for the case of learning, loving, and losing the three L's all encased in a tiny litte box we call 'life'. I have been studying hard, and working hard. I have been slacking off on my shop a little by closing it for a long time as well, which I do not believe benefited my inner creative soul for the very least. But I think now I am actually beginning to breathe again. I was drowning there for a while, in a sea of emotions, and swimming against the high tide every day, or so it seemed. I lost my best friend, and hope to recover that friendship some day, but now is not the time. I think denial is a foe and for many months, it was my friend. I cherish not my actions so much in the past, but my intuition in talking to me softly, for every breath that I take. Thankfully, I did not lose myself, and although I was told I did, over and over, I found the strength to gain the momentum in coming up for air, every time a wave of panic would hit me.
Our inner soul is not accustomed to the world around us. It is something we are only able to grasp if we truly listen to our hearts. I had the courage to ask my own soul the questions in needing and wanting to find happiness, and albeit, although others may not agree with what my heart and soul are now in love with, I cannot control this, nor do I wish or ever want too. What others say, I do the opposite. I feel the opposite, and breath the opposite of normality.
Change is a good thing in life. It enables us to grow slowly, one day at a time.
Smiles to those who care, and listen .






